The last week.

Well, here we go... It's the last hurrah.

2 finals on Thursday and I'll be done with undergrad. Finished.

Until then, it's hardcore studying... I hope.

Good Weekend.

Me and Rick.

SLO. Pre-Finals Week.

Just went for a quick run. I'm starting to just enjoy the simple act of going out for a run. It's seriously one of the most mind-clearing things you can do, and it just makes you feel more uplifted.

Tonight, (rather, at the ass-crack of dawn tomorrow) Me, Justin, and Sam are driving down to SLO to watch my homie Ricky graduate college. It's amazing, especially since I know that this time next week, I'll be a college graduate. I can't believe that I'm about to accomplish something that I've always wanted to accomplish. I feel so blessed. I'm dedicating my accomplishment to my Lola Pepay, who always stressed the importance of education in my life. I miss her.

Finals week is here. How do you want to remember this moment 1 week from now?

2 years...

So, what's different 2 years later? (an almost direct cut and paste from 2009)

whatever is italicized is what's new from (since) 2009

-I'm 22 now.. Lol duh. :)
-I'm still living on my own... With the help of my parents, of course.
-Different city, different school, different car. (same as last year)
-More experienced; I'd say the last year of my life has been the most eye-opening and enjoyable year I've lived. <-- I can say the same about 2010
-Finally started going to the gym. (So far in over a year, I've dropped about 70 pounds)
-I marched Sac State drumline this past Winter and Fall.
-I'm more appreciative of family, and I'm more in touch with my Dad than I've ever been. (Much more so in 2010.)
-I'm smarter, in an academic sense. Probably wiser too. (Definitely true-er this year after becoming a TA for 2 Psyc classes, and actually doing Psyc research)
-I changed majors. (Still a Psyc major)
-NO MORE BRACES (Straight teeth FTW)

Now, what has stayed the same?

-I'd say I'm still Raymond. I'm still the same guy you've known (or once known).
-I love music & drumming (same as before).
-I still procrastinate ALMOST EVERYTHING.
-I still fall for girls way too easily. <-- Hmmm, this *might* have changed
-I still crack jokes that aren't funny. haha. (My Psyc 101 students can attest to this)

Good or bad, what's different and stayed the same is who I am now. I'm still developing as an adult. It's exciting. (STILL,VERY TRUE TODAY)

So it's been 2 years since I've started this blog. A lot has changed since my first post. I'm very glad that I still have this blog as a way of, "fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth" (Stolen from Baz Luhrmann's "Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)" song.)

Anyway, today... I finished my last day of college instruction. I have 2 finals next Thursday, and I'll be done with college (undergrad, that is). Graduate school is coming soon.

Friday the 17th, 12pm, Arco Arena. Graduation. I can't wait.

"The Official" NC A&T - Bed Intruder Song 8.28.2010

This is freaking hilarious. A&T WHERE YOU AT HO HOOOOOME BOOOOOOIII!

Not even gonna lie.

I am really, really, really full right now. Chipotle.... AND cookies. Best post-workout meal ever.

Oh, and I made a new Twitter account. It shouldn't be too hard to find.

Peace.

StudentHacks.org

How to Write a Great Term Paper in One Evening.

This is probably about the 4th or 5th time I'm using this article to help me write a term paper. I find that every semester since I've been at Sac State, I've had to use this at least once to write a paper.

Read the article though! It really helps me whenever I get stuck in a rut to remind me what I'm actually supposed to be doing. Definitely bookmark it. :)

Woot

I'm getting a LOT done tonight. (Compared to an average night)

So Far:

• Wrote my first draft of my CV.
• Rewrote my personal statement.
• Got a bunch of important emails to professors out of the way.
• Wrote my 30-day notice to vacate.
• Rewrote a letter of recommendation.
• AND..... Laundry = DONE. That's the kicker... :)

Tomorrow will be a fun day.

Tanging Yaman

I love this song. It's really pretty. Skip to 0:23.

Overwhelmed.

I'm overwhelmed with my thoughts. There are certain things I can't stop thinking about. There are so many things I can't stop worrying about. There are so many unknowns right now in my life. I'm not complaining about my school workload, I mean, I DO have a busy semester, but that's not what I'm really just overwhelmed with right now. I'm more overwhelmed about everything else.

Family because I only get to see them every so often. I saw my mom for the first time in about 2 months today. I was so happy to see her. Now that I'm back home, I already really miss my mom. All of my other family, I miss them all too, and I can't wait til we all have a big family gathering again.

Friends because I know that my time is limited here in Sacramento. I have NO friends in San Francisco anymore. I hate starting over. I remember going into 10th grade, having to make the transition to school in suburban Napa. Then having to transition into Sacramento. It almost feels now like I'm taking a step backwards, in-time or something, where I'm back to my hometown, but without my friends who are always there for me. Plus the fact that I'll be out of school for at least 8 months. What am I gonna do with my life? I don't wanna end up like my cousin Joseph, just sitting on my ass all day playing video games (I'd rather hang myself than live such a useless lifestyle). Anyway, the point being is that all my friends I've made in the past 2 years here in Sacramento won't be around anymore... That really makes me sad. Like really, really sad. I was talking to my older cousin today, and she told me that, "That's life, you constantly make new friends, leave the old ones behind, and some lucky ones stay with you through all throughout your life. Those are the ones you really should keep close to your heart." So, how do I know if I've already found some of these lifelong friends??? I do have some really close friends, but how do I really know if this will be where we part our ways? Things like this really make me nervous. I have a hard time letting things go, and this doesn't seem to be any different. No matter what however, (as part of my moving-away bucket list) I want to make sure that these people know how much I care about them, and how much they mean to me.

On a side note, there are a couple people who are really just getting on my nerves right now for the way they're treating me. I've never, ever done anything to get on their bad side. How could you seriously consider me as a friend and then be a bitch to me.....seriously no kidding, I don't get any respect back from you... I am a good friend and a good person, I know that for a fact... and I really don't deserve the treatment I get from you. I'll just consider our brief friendship a "quickie".

Bills because well, I'm about to be a jobless college graduate. Through my 4 1/2 years of undergrad, I've accrued quite the standard student credit card debt, among other forms of debt. I know that my degree is pretty much useless if I wanna work in my field, so I know that more school is in order, but all this debt is starting to make me worry. Hopefully, I find a part time job in the mean time, and pay off all of my debts because I hate having debt. It's seriously a constant stress that I ALWAYS force myself to ignore because I know that right now, I can't afford to pay any of it off since I'm still a student without income.  It sucks...

Grad school because I NEED to get in. There's no question about it.... If I don't get in, I'm screwed. If I don't get in, my major was a waste of time. I love psychology, but I should have picked something where a Bachelor's degree would make money. -___- Hindsight is always 20/20.

School is also somewhere on my list of things that overwhelm me, but honestly, I feel that all these other things worry me more because they are somewhat out of my control at the moment. School is totally up to me. Whether or not I get a 4.0 or a 2.0 semester is up to me. That's why I'm not too worried about school, because I know that I control MY destiny. School is that internal locus of control in my life, everything else just seems to be out of my control.

Soo, after all of these things that I'm worried about, I just want to make my last days here as fun as possible. I really hope that I'm able to just chill with all my friends, be happy, and make sure that my last memories being in Sacramento are good ones that I'll remember for a long time. I don't wanna remember Sacramento as being a negative experience. I mean Sacramento was my first dabble in being an independent person, living without my parents. Trust me, I was far from independent financially... I'm sure I was actually very fiscally irresponsible actually. Hahah, I guess that's part of the learning process that is college.

But really the past 2 years have been great to me. I grew as a person, experienced soooo may new things, met so many new people, kept up with a bunch of friends from high school, traveled a bunch, and created friendships that will *hopefully* stay with me for the rest of my life. It deeply saddens me that I know this chapter of life will be ending soon.

I'm sorry I rambled, but if you read all that, you'll probably get a glimpse of what's been going through my head lately... Yes, I know that these are such insignificant things that don't really matter in the long term. You're probably also getting a glimpse of how naive I am... I usually end up reading my blog, laughing at myself because of how naive I was when I wrote whatever it was that I wrote...

Graduation

Thinking about things now, was it worth it to rush to graduation for this Fall? Or should I have waited till the Spring? It's too late to change my mind now, but still... I can only say, "what if " or "if only".

Life is changing in the near future. I'm so nervous.

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100 pills lyrics.

LINK: 100 Pills - Mr. Meeble


(don't worry about the content of the video, the mp3 is what's important.)


Remember when we ran away to be one
To make promises
I'll be your love to the end

I never thought the end would come this way
That's for the other ones
In a different place, on a different day

Remember walking through the Cambridge grass
It was cold that day
I was so alive

Now I'm dead and cold
In a different way
I remember almost every word and every smile you gave

What am I supposed to feel?
How am I supposed to swallow this?
It's like one hundred pills
Doing their best to climb out of my mouth
Everything's gone south
Fucked it up for real
What am I supposed to feel?

In the end you sank the shiv that sank me
One flesh torn in two
One mouth less left to feed

Now I'm walking wounded through these scenes
Now you're free
So fly, don't think twice or wave goodbye

Hold the pain, the frame
Shame on me
Should have pulled it out by now but I savor the sting

Life's a funeral and an empty bed
I have taken mine a hundred times
Will I bury you instead?

What am I supposed to feel?
How am I supposed to swallow this?
It's like one hundred pills
Doing their best to climb out of my mouth
Everything's gone south
Fucked it up for real
What am I supposed to feel, feel? 

Awesome piano cover.

List of things to do before I move.

Raymond Ringl's Sacramento Bucket List

           

1.         Have a nice Thanksgiving dinner with my Psyc homes.

            2.         Go to Sac INTL and actually see a plane take off and land. (done: 11/8/10)

            3.         Display a helping behavior to 15 people.

            4.         Tell girls I thought were cute from my classes that I think they are cute.

            ⁃           Lindsay from 107

            ⁃           Samantha from 108

            -           Kelly

            5.         Go to Adalberto's one last time.

            6.         Have a goodbye dinner.

            7.         Bench 215 8 times with minimal help

            8.         Get down to 200 lbs.

            9.         Make sure the people I care about know how I feel.

            10.      Graduate… DUH

More to come...