2016 through 2018

I don't know what to say, I just know that looking at the pictures of us, where we were, what we had, I miss very much. I just watched the NYE 2016 / NYD 2017 video at Liquid Laundry. The video was so weird to watch because watching the happiness on your face was just so surreal. We were happy at one point. I know that being with you was and is a terrible idea, but it doesn't stop me from missing those special moments, traveling across the globe, and going through things together.
I feel like the time, 2016 - 2018, these years were taken away from me, even though during these years, we did some amazing things, and had some crazy experiences. Now, I look back and I don't even recognize them, unless I look at the pictures, which open up the memories of a time that no longer exists.

The right message needs to come from the right person

The right message needs to come from the right person. Even though there is so much angst and frustration from someone, you need to hear the right message from the person who you are most "angry" at.

"Time will heal everything."

I believe that's true, so right now, I'm in the state of discomfort, things aren't in a good place, but I believe that going through this phase will allow me to realize what is important and when things do get better, I will understand what happiness feels like and what it really means deep down.

I hope we're out of this state of discomfort soon, though.