I'm Sorry

Someimes I wonder if I made the right decision. I know I did... I guess, but I just feel like we were two good people in two bad spots in our lives. It sucks, I know, and sometimes i want to talk to you...  I still miss you. I really do. I think about you and realize that you were a great person who i learned a lot from, but I can't forget the things you lied to me about - nor could I really accept those things and continue a life together with those things being a part of our relationship.

I could talk on and on for hours about this subject. And I could literally say I love you still. But I need to move on. For me. 

I believe there are a lot of great things still in store for me.

Goodnight.

First Post of 2015

I found out a new phrase today that I totally could identify with:

"Idle hands are the devil's advocate"

I really need to find purpose in life... no matter what that purpose may be. I just want to feel like the work I do will make an impact. Right now, the job search is cruel. We shall see in the coming weeks whether or not I can find a job. I feel like I need some sort of miracle to get the ball rolling to somewhere. I want this to happen so bad. Let's go Raymond.

Oh btw, Asia was fun. I don't regret anything.