Dad

Dad,

I hope you understand how much I think of you... and how much I wanted to know who you were... what you were like... I think it would help me understand why I am the way I am today....


I miss you Dad.

I could use your advice.

Last night

I love the feeling of when you are connecting with another human being. In brain biology, it's the same as a drug's effect on the brain.


A strong rush of dopamine... it's a great motivating driver for our behaviors... that's why love is so powerful.

And I failed again...

Barely making it these days... The struggle is real...

The urge...

I have this urge to wanna blog again... but I have nothing to blog about...


My job is pretty tough so far... I'm only training -- but my head is straight up spinning...

A lot to cover/learn in a short amount of time...

I'm refreshed though!


Hopefully tmrw night goes well!

Signing off -- Raymond

The life

Some would say that where I am in life, right now, is the "primetime" of my life. It's time to get out there, be foolish, have fun, meet cool people, and just enjoy life...

There will never be a time as good as I have it now, where I will have my youthful/childishness/playfulness the same as I have it now.


Let's go out and enjoy the life, because it's such a beautiful one, at that...

Signing off...

-Raymond

Starting over...

At long last... I feel free again... I can do what I want. Freedom to do as I please...


Some might say that being single is necessary for self-discovery...

At least it's fun....

It's been a while since I've left my heart on my sleeve.

My heart can’t take this anymore.
I can’t being alone anymore.
I am alone in this relationship for two...
We say we are in a relationship, but we can’t be together.
this doesn’t make sense...

Why should I continue to torture myself?