Man...

I need to lose this weight... I'm working out with out getting any results... just maintaining or on a surplus... i.e., gaining weight.

I need to figure this out.

I am not as strong as I used to be... I need to get back into cardio first... Once I get my stamina back, i'm sure my lifts will go back up where they used to be... I still remember being able to deadlift 315lbs, squat 275 pounds... 13 pull ups... 10-12 dips... and now I'm just like man... look at where I used to be. and look at where I am at now. barely can squat 225. barely can deadlift 225, bench a max of 185 like 1-2 times... 3-4 dips max, 3 pull ups max... I used to be strong!!!

Let's start this slow... be disciplined.

If you were only here.

I can't sleep.

Maybe it's because I miss you...

I feel centered when you're with me. I feel at home. I feel like we could be together for a very long time. I feel... good... when I'm with you.