Safe and Sound

You will seek Me

and find Me

when you search for Me

with all your heart.

Sometimes you have to make decisions with your heart.

If you don't follow you heart in life... what is the point of living?

5 years ago.

It's December! Wow.... Happy almost 5 years, Blog. I still do use this thing... ya know.

College Graduation Night

When I start to think that someday I'll be a parent.

I still can't imagine that I'll be raising a child of my own someday. I'll try my best, for you... future somebody. I hope I do well for you, someday.

Sometimes, I don't mind. BEAST!

Back into the gym swing

So I'm back to the gym now... Trying to be healthier. Trying to get swole once more.. I guess you can call it a win if you keep on trying to reach your goal...

HAH!


So I'm going to NOLA at the end of the month... Just bought tix to BKK/Philippines for Late Dec thru Mid Jan... Good luck getting it off at work! HAHA.

What else is new? Hmm... Well, the internship is going well... I'm starting to enjoy Human Resources a lot... I guess I just like work and people at work??? idk.


The Altawatys came 2 weeks ago and we spent a great deal of time hanging out and just being children again. Fun stuff. I feel like it was just yesterday when I would go spend entire Summers with them in Riverside. Oh the memories.... Except now we do even more fun stuff ;)


Last weekend in Reno with the roomies was pretty fun -- except for the crappy time gambling... Let's hope 2 weeks from now is a lot better.

This weekend is Kim's birthday. Next weekend is Sac town with Matt, Darren, and Jorge. The weekend after is Oktoberfest with the roomies in SF. Then the last weekend of the month is NOLA. September will be a good month.


Which reminds me... I need to finish up a few chores that I've been lagging on...


Just keep on gyming! I might be fooling myself, but I think this time will be the time I am ready to get really swole like a mofo.

Onward!

It's been a struggle lately.

But you know what? I think that the real issue here is just to keep myself busy, and hey, if I do need to let loose, I just need to keep a good head on my shoulders and make good choices.

I know what I need to do, and I'm smart enough to make the right choices, so I just need to execute my strategy...

Thesis submitted!

Today was day 5!

I feel great. I feel empowered...

Time to celebrate tomorrow with my 2 other peers who will have finished their theses as well!

(I'll make an exception for this, as I promised special occasions were okay) :))))

As I finish editing my thesis.

Sometimes I look back at the experience of grad school and wonder...


How the hell was I able to finish grad school in 2 years????

With all of the boozing, partying, and stupidness that I went through... How did this happen?

Well, at least I was one of the first to graduate in my program. It was a hell of an experience.

*Day 4 of sobriety.* Clear minded and happy again. :)

Dad.

The one who I dream of being like.
The one who I wish I had a chance to know.
1/2 of my story -- I'm his only child.
I'm the only person carrying the family genes.
My Dad would have certainly achieved greatness...
He's what I inspire to be today.
I wish I could see my Dad one more time.
Have one last hug. I wish I could have been there for him.
I wish I could have taken care of the very person who cared for me so much.

I miss you and love you, Dad.

Is it working?

I really need to learn how to manage my life better.

I know what I have the potential to do. I just need to prove to myself that I CAN do it. and I know what I need to do to get there.

Don't let yourself down. Raymond.


^^^^This is what I tell myself all the time...

It will be a while...

I am finally a Master

After one hell of a weekend. I am finally graduated from SJSU and I have my master's degree.

Well, at least, not formally, but I'm pretty much done...

Now to focus on my career and creating a great life for myself.


Thank you to all who came out and made it extra special for me. I'll never forget you guys. I love you.

-Raymond :)

2nd day of work

Today is my 2nd day of work... Pretty damn excited.

Clean slate.

Where shall we go from here?

I would really like some solidarity in my life right now.

I just can't...

I can't continue this.

Why did you wait so long to tell me? I'm still in love with you but I just can't...

Blurry

It's a fine line between +/-

and the only difference is your attitude, Raymond.

Let's keep up the positives and brush off the negatives. Staying busy will help with that.

Now, if I could only learn to listen to my own advice.

Today...

Today was the first day in a long time where I just felt lost... lonely... just pretty much out of it.

I need some good news in life... and soon. Or else I'll just keep falling out of the groove I should be in.

Why do I feel this way?

Short update...

Getting ready to go to the gym right now for another hour of cardio :)

Tonight I need to look through my thesis draft and redo a bunch of parts... It's a never ending process.

and, right about now... I'm pretty Jack3D. but no Jack3D... using a different preworkout... Hope my forearm heals quickly.

Who thinks I can finish data collection and data analysis in a week? *raises hand*

Freebies from banks and a job search

I'm a man on a mission right now.

All or nothing

I'm applying to a bunch jobs right now. I need a job in the next month.

GAHHH

Lately

I've been being pretty cheap when it comes to spending money. I like this. I hope it continues...

Job interview

Interviewing at Radford this morning. Good thing I'm awake about 2.5 hours before it so I can prepare myself.

Chao Praya... circa 1/4/13

Living on next to nothing.

For the next few weeks, I'm gonna be a hermit. I'm gonna try to eat at home as much as I can. Not spend money as much as I can. Basically, the reason for all this, is cause of my Asia trip. I spent more than 3 grand on the entire thing... and I don't regret any part of it. It was amazing.

I still will want to go see Amy though... I'm willing to use my resources at hand to go see her. She's worth it. :)

Asia was effing awesome.

but this is all I have left to sing.




I miss Amy.