Stephanie,

I would usually write this somewhere else, but I'd rather just write it here... I remember the day we first met... what was it, June 16th 2010??? Yeah, something like that... It was very memorable... I remember all of our chats, skypes, texts, calls, etc. During the past year-plus, I've felt like you've been the one person I could connect with and share my most intimate details with... I don't think I've ever found a girl I could do something like that with. That's why losing you is so hard on my end... Stephanie, you've been more than a great friend to me... I've no doubt fallen for you since last summer... that's the sad part, our timing sucks. Goodbye, friend.

School is getting better.

I think that the biggest problem out of all my problems with school right now is that I'm lazy... just downright lazy. I have so many things to read and I never want to do it... It's like, the hardest part is to start reading... after that, I quickly that realize reading isn't so bad; it's actually something I enjoy. I'm still confused about it all... Maybe as time passes, school will get clearer... Maybe.

Runaway.

Ok, so I've done some reevaluating of my workout routine... Basically, the past few months have been all about getting bigger and stronger... While that was all fine and dandy, I noticed that I have been neglecting my cardio after my weightlifting sessions. It's resulted in me not necessarily gaining weight, but staying the same weight for over a year now. I have a goal which I set up for myself for November 15th, and with my old routine, I just would never meet my goals in time... SOOOOO, I'm gonna start focusing on running more (having cardio-only days)... running at least 15 miles a week, as well as spreading out my weightlifting days to allow for more recovery in between. I hope by doing that, along with maintaining a slightly more regulated diet should do the trick and I should meet my goal by November 15th... So yeah, it's time to put the work in and see the results... I can talk about doing things as much as I want on here, but the results will only show if I'm willing to put in the hard work... Will it happen? Only time will tell.

Gym Time!

After working from 3pm to 1:30 am on all my I-O Psyc stuff... I'm gonna go relax my mind by hitting the gym. Some call me crazy, I'm just Raymond.

HDR

I love photos like this; the colors really come out.

I feel like I am sooo behind in school already. What is wrong with me??? Eh, its nothing... I've always been a natural procrastinator; my best work usually comes from the pressure of a deadline.

Let's play the blame game.

Just got back home from one of the most memorable weekends I've ever had. To be honest, this weekend changed everything. I'm so grateful for all the blessings I have received in my life. I will never forget this trip. I love my family -- especially Dad, Grandma Helen, and Lola Pepay... I already miss everyone. "Yeezy taught you well."

All is ready.

All is ready for another weekend which will be spent in SoCal... Last Wednesday after my first day of grad school, I drove up to Sacramento and chilled with the homies for a couple of days. It was pretty chill... and I tried Marie's donuts for the first time... straight up delicious... Friday came around, and me and Justy drove down to Pico Rivera. I had some free time so I went to go see my Dad while Justin was at police testing. I'm really glad I got to see my Dad for the brief time I was able. After that, me and Justin went to San Diego to visit Nick. We went to the Gaslamp Quarter... started drinking at 6, gone by 9, and in bed by 1. HAHA.

It was a fun night, just chillin'... the three of us. Sunday came and we made the trip back to Sacramento... got into Sac around 11. Went to the gym, and then drove back to San Jose that night... it was a crazy night. So now it's Tuesday night, I have a flight tomorrow night after I get out of class to Ontario from San Jose airport. I can't wait to go back to SoCal and see all my cousins and family. I still have to wake up early tomorrow, so I'm gonna keep this blog post short. I packed all my stuff, and all is ready to go when I get out of class for another weekend of activities. There might even be a round 3 next weekend. We'll just have to wait and see.

First Day.

I've been waiting for 8 months for today, the first day of grad school. Now it has come and gone. I feel like, for the time I waited, it was totally worth it to get back into school. I can't wait to get back to learning more, doing more, and starting to feel sick of school again... haha, it never fails to happen throughout a semester. Alright guys, I'm about to hit the sac(k)... yes, that's right I also drove to Sac tonight. Me and Justin are going down to LA and SD this weekend. Maybe I'll have more to write sometime this weekend. Peace

Fear.

Archives of the past where our lives were intertwined... I'm glad I have these memories, even if they still haunt me... From time to time you still cross my mind, the scars you left are reminders of good times...good times I am thankful to have experienced... with you.

Goodnight.

Bittersweet poetry

Enjoy these days Raymond; these days are numbered. Magic number: 2

Wintsprummer vacation is just about over... I can't wait to start using my brain again.

The Longest Road

Something keeps telling me that what's left of this Summer is only going to get better.

It's almost (bed)time.

Alright, so I just bought my tickets for Ontario. Gonna be heading to socal on August 31, at 9pm... So that pretty much means that right after I get out of class, I'm gonna have to head to the airport. I'll be there til Labor Day in the morning. I can't wait to go south and see my family, especially my Dad. I haven't seen him since May... or was it June? I can't exactly remember... either way, I'm excited.

Also, I'm gonna be heading to Sac next Wednesday night, right after my first day of grad school. I'll probably kick it at Ricky and Justin's place (if they let me) and then on Friday (Aug 26) me and Justin are gonna head down to LA and then SD... I think it's gonna be a fun time.

I'm really excited about what's coming up soon. Tomorrow I have orientation, Saturday is the I/O Psyc bbq, and then I have 2 days to prep for school! I have been waiting so long for this... at least, til school starts, I can still live it up...

Now, I guess it's bedtime... Time to pop that melatonin and switch off the lights... Yeah, I know it's not even 9pm, but I need to learn to sleep at a normal time so I can wake up at a normal time.

Before I go to sleep...

I just wanted to.... no, I just NEEDED to write this somewhere.

If you are ever lucky enough to find your soulmate sometime during your journey through life, never ever let that person go; you will always regret it.

Now, for me, being at the young ripe age of 23, I know that I can't speak from my vast knowledge of relationship experience on this one... so this is all coming from my naive little mind... But that doesn't matter... I'm 100% certain that one's soulmate is the one person in the entire world that sees you for you, and accepts and loves everything you are. So if you're lucky enough to find that in this world, don't let go... Don't let distance, school, or anything else get in the way... Trust that you'll find a way through.

I'm glad we talked tonight. You've been missing in my life for so long.

Getting closer...

This weekend should be fun... One of my last weekends I have left to do whatever I want... Headed to Fairfield today, then babysit tomorrow... Then Saturday is Rosie's b-day party, then back home Saturday night. Then Sunday back to just chillin'. Which reminds me, I need to get a job.