Fear.

Archives of the past where our lives were intertwined... I'm glad I have these memories, even if they still haunt me... From time to time you still cross my mind, the scars you left are reminders of good times...good times I am thankful to have experienced... with you.

Goodnight.

Bittersweet poetry

Enjoy these days Raymond; these days are numbered. Magic number: 2

Wintsprummer vacation is just about over... I can't wait to start using my brain again.

The Longest Road

Something keeps telling me that what's left of this Summer is only going to get better.

It's almost (bed)time.

Alright, so I just bought my tickets for Ontario. Gonna be heading to socal on August 31, at 9pm... So that pretty much means that right after I get out of class, I'm gonna have to head to the airport. I'll be there til Labor Day in the morning. I can't wait to go south and see my family, especially my Dad. I haven't seen him since May... or was it June? I can't exactly remember... either way, I'm excited.

Also, I'm gonna be heading to Sac next Wednesday night, right after my first day of grad school. I'll probably kick it at Ricky and Justin's place (if they let me) and then on Friday (Aug 26) me and Justin are gonna head down to LA and then SD... I think it's gonna be a fun time.

I'm really excited about what's coming up soon. Tomorrow I have orientation, Saturday is the I/O Psyc bbq, and then I have 2 days to prep for school! I have been waiting so long for this... at least, til school starts, I can still live it up...

Now, I guess it's bedtime... Time to pop that melatonin and switch off the lights... Yeah, I know it's not even 9pm, but I need to learn to sleep at a normal time so I can wake up at a normal time.

Before I go to sleep...

I just wanted to.... no, I just NEEDED to write this somewhere.

If you are ever lucky enough to find your soulmate sometime during your journey through life, never ever let that person go; you will always regret it.

Now, for me, being at the young ripe age of 23, I know that I can't speak from my vast knowledge of relationship experience on this one... so this is all coming from my naive little mind... But that doesn't matter... I'm 100% certain that one's soulmate is the one person in the entire world that sees you for you, and accepts and loves everything you are. So if you're lucky enough to find that in this world, don't let go... Don't let distance, school, or anything else get in the way... Trust that you'll find a way through.

I'm glad we talked tonight. You've been missing in my life for so long.

Getting closer...

This weekend should be fun... One of my last weekends I have left to do whatever I want... Headed to Fairfield today, then babysit tomorrow... Then Saturday is Rosie's b-day party, then back home Saturday night. Then Sunday back to just chillin'. Which reminds me, I need to get a job.

Hate

find a new hobby girl... the sooner the better because you're just an obsessed groupie... I'm glad you understood/understand.

why?

Why did I just get the urge to suddenly call you... text you... skype you??? Check my other blog. I left something there for you.

Alright so now the plan is to get back on track. Gotta stay focused on my goals...

Fiesta Night

I'm grateful that I'm surrounded by some great family members that are amazing to be around every year. At the same time, I can't help but hate on those who completely ignore me, don't show any love for, and act like I don't exist. Y'all act like you're better than me... but guess what... You're not better than me... period. I realize where I'm goin' in life, and I hope you realize where you're going in life. Trust me, it ain't better than where I'm headed. So yeah, continue on... figure that out... and later on in life, where you see what level I'm at, go ahead... finally say hi to me, and I'm sure I'll have words for you... not like those words will matter to me then... but they sho will matter to YOU then.

can't wait til these tables are turned on your sorry asses. ..

Hey, You

Yeah you. You reading this...

Why are you reading this (my blog)? No really, I want to know... Do you have anything you want to say to me? Leave me a comment on this post... it would be interesting to see if anyone actually does have something they want to tell me, or have a comment about my blog (or even bothers to read this)... I don't think I've had anyone comment for over a year. Not that it affects my affinity for my blog/changes how I feel about it... I mean, I'm still gonna post my thoughts, feelings, and stories.... I always have a lot to say... even if I have no audience besides myself.

So I've moved in to my new place in San Jose. I like it here. I have freedom once again like I did in Sacramento. Albeit, I have no friends here, just yet... (besides my housemates). I'm sure a month into the fall semester, I'll have maybe 1 or 2 friends... lol, we'll have to see how that goes... hopefully there are some attractive girls in my master's program *crosses fingers*...  Anyway, I'm about to hit the hay; just had a really grueling swole session and I'm pooped. I like the fact that the 24 hour fitness here is open, well 24 hours a day... not like the one on Ocean ave in SF, which closed at 2 and reopened at 5... that place should be called 21 hour fitness...

Anyway, things here are going great, and this Saturday is the novena fiesta back in SF... Something that I love going to every year because there are always about 200-300 people who show up... not that I know them all, but it's kinda cool to go to a big ass family party with hella extended family and friends. Maybe I'll have stories to tell in my next post (e.g., last Thursday night, last Saturday night at Frank's b-day in Concord, Monday/Tuesday nights in SJ)... sort of like my story that I posted a while back on here about that night in 2008... hah! Maybe.

Getting swole

The last 10 days, I've been getting really swole lately... I've been hitting the gym hard... and I think it's starting to show just a (little) bit. I love seeing the results of the hard work I put in each week... All it does is give me that positive reinforcement... Keep workin' baby.

On another note, I found a place to live in SJ. I think I'm gonna like it there... It has pretty much exactly what I was looking for in a place to live. Official move in is this Sunday... Till then, lots of work to do...

Sometimes I like to compare my life to the Amazing Race (ok, sounds stupid, but stay with me on this one) ... Now, on the show, the contestants have no idea where the race is gonna take them to, and right now my life feels the same way... each leg of the race takes them to an unknown destination, and they have to take each pit stop in stride til the finish... I feel like all of these mini hurdles I've been going through are my little pit stops, and I gotta take all of them in stride as well; wherever life takes me... I feel like the race is still in the beginning stages... I have a long way to go.

Goodnight reader(s). :)

Back on the hunt...

Now that the past two weeks in Fairfield have passed and my birthday is now over and done with, it's time to start seriously looking for a place to live in San Jose. I've got one appointment tomorrow at a place that looks nice from what I can see in the pics. I'm hoping to find a place soon so I can start planning the rest of well, my uhhhhmmm life... lol. Oh, life... you are so mysterious.

Here's another sickkk Scrillex remix I found on youtube. Check out the suhweeet drop at 1:18. So dope.

Soooo good.

I had a very nice conversation tonight with two very nice ladies... Thanks for that... Kinda needed something like that; it's been a while...

This song hits pretty hard btw... it's my new addiction. My birthday is tomorrow... can't wait to see what's up with downtown Sacramento. :)

Maxed Out

Today, I hit my highest weight on dumbell flat bench; it felt great... I feel great. All I wanna do is train harder and get stronger.

I love doing what I do. Nothing wrong with this addiction.