Yasmeen's Graduation

Congrats cousin!!!

 

It always feels like life is a race...

and I always feel like I'm losing...

But for some reason, this week, I feel like I'm finally winning this race...

The people I feel that are beating me, are finally behind me... I feel like I've made the necessary adjustments and made the right decisions in my life to finally feel like these people just don't phase me anymore... They don't even come close to me. I'm really feeling like I can finally just go out and do me, and that's all I need to do. I don't need to compare myself to others, feeling insecure, because these people I was mentally competing with just don't even matter anymore... They're either too immature for me, less educated than I am, less experienced than I am, and/or overall not as intelligent as I am. Btw, intelligence is not something you can teach or learn... it's in your genes, and knowing how intelligent my father was (IQ >145, went to West Point, had a legit photographic memory, always at the top of his class while still being the class clown [no joke, my father was really effing smart]), I just know that I have those same genes... I know how intelligent I am, I know how apt I am to learning ANYTHING, I know how educated I am, and I know my academic/professional potential... I have all of the tools one needs to be considered successful in this society... Now with that set aside, the things I have been doing during my off-time out of school, I feel like these things are greatly adding to my sense of self-worth, which is very important in today's society...

So, back to the race. I know my strengths and I know my weaknesses even better... but trust me, if you think you've got me beat in one aspect of life... I promise you, I've got you beat in 10 other aspects...

But, now that I feel like I'm winning this race called "life", I have to realize that life isn't a race... I'm not competing with anyone, besides myself. One of my all time favorite philosophical quotes about life comes from Baz Luhrmann, who said...

"Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself."


But for now, I'm ahead, and I'm WINNING!!!! and it all feels great... so let's go! Try and beat me because the race isn't over yet, I love the competition, and I love getting better at "life". Let's keep racing... I've just started.

See you at the finish line, or not. :P

To my future babymama... (mother's day edition)

We gon' have some pretty kids. Especially if you're a hapa, cause you should already know,hapa+hapa=pretty kids. :D Trust me on that one.

You ever wonder if we've already met? I sometimes wonder... not that I'm in any sort of rush to find you...

You're gonna be one lucky lady, cause you better believe I'm putting in my work now to make sure I can be a good father and support my family when time comes...

Yesterday's history, tomorrow's a mystery.

Happy mother's day!

Love this...

"We don't find out that something is missing in our lives until that special person comes along." -Stephanie Cichoski

Diploma

Took them long enough...

So confusing....

Here's the Revelo Family Tree... some of it anyways....

Sometimes I lie awake

at night and all I can think of is everything happening in the world around me. So much is happening and yet, I'm trying to let it all go...

Goodnight... I hope.

Somewhere over the rainbow...

Now that I know where I'll be spending the next few years of my life, I can finally relax.

I enjoyed meeting the I/O Program coordinator. She's really nice, and we have similar research interests. I really feel that this school is the best fit for me. I'm excited to start my future studies. There's just so much potential... :)

Monday

It's coming. I'm not really sure if I'm ready for the potential news. I'm getting really, really, anxious.

On my list of other things I'm counting down until, I can't wait til lent is over. I think I may have actually forgot what rice tastes like.

Anyway, I am just ready for school to start up again. I really can't wait to feel useful and productive once again.

Here's what has been on my playlist a lot lately. Listening to this song keeps me motivated and helps keep my life in perspective when things just don't seem to be going my way.

Florida University

Random, long, & rambling late night post.

I really enjoy reading my own blog. I have no idea why. I really just enjoy remembering all sorts of memories that are stuck in the back of my mind, and this blog is like a metaphorical stick that helps poke and prod at those memories... Especially when I read back to the earlier posts I have on in here, of when I first moved to Sac (08-09), I just remember how random and fun college life was. Those early days in Sac where I didn't know my way around the city were fun. Now, come to think of it, I kind DO hope I end up moving to San Jose this August for grad school. It seems like a good fit for me, and I enjoy the campus and there trendy areas nearby. Plus, it's only a 45 min drive back to San Francisco for visits with my family... Meaning, I'm close enough to see family on the weekends while still maintaining enough distance to give myself that sense of freedom and "being-on-my-own"--ness. ANDDD there's also the fact that San Jose is a whole new city for me to explore. Well see what the next 11 days has to offer me, because from now until that day, I will make the final decision on where I'll be spending the next 2-3 years of my life as a graduate student... SFSU or SJSU... Both are great schools with their own pros and cons to each, and I'll be happy that I'm just earning my Master's degree at either one. Anyways, I'm gonna enjoy my next 4.5 months off from school, and possibly find a job, keep going to the gym everyday, and keep living it up while I'm still young. Anyway back to original reason I'm writing this post. I enjoy reading my older blog posts... It's a good diary that I've got going here. So many good and bad memories to reread. It's cool to also compare what I was writing about on this day in 2010, or 2009, or eventually 2008 when December comes around (when I started this blog). I wish I had started this web diary sooner (I remember keeping a years worth of blog posts on my old MySpace account... and I wish I hadn't deleted the account so I could somehow get those posts back). I think keeping this journal has been an efficient means of self-mediated therapy; an effective way to vent or write whatever I'm thinking/feeling/doing. I know the importance of having a means of expressing oneself from my psychology days at Sac State, and I'm glad that I have this... It's like a photo album, but with words... Anyways, I hope to hear back from SFSU this week or next at the latest, and I'm guessing there's a 70% chance I'll hear back by this Friday as to whether or not I'm offered admission into the I/O Program there. I can't wait. Oh plus, I'm planning a road trip this month to SLO, SB, LA, Walnut, La Habra Heights, and Riverside to visit friends and family. I'm guess I'll need about $350 for the 4-5 day excursion... I'm sure it'll be about $150 in gas expenses anyway. Well goodnight blog readers... Although, I'm pretty sure I'm just talking to myself nowadays. Chest and Tris tomorrow, pretty excited! Plus it's Tuesday, and you know what that means. CHICKEN. :| Haha. Plus I need to get that laundry done before 7pm. Alright going to bed now... Goodnight readers (me). :]

The greatest feeling in the world...

...is knowing that now, I am solely in control of my destiny. Whatever I want to do with my life as of March 24th, 2:47pm is up to me. What a liberating feeling it was to open a letter... a letter which would change my life forever. The hard work I had put in to get to that moment was worth it; the tears I shed in pure happiness were completely justified.

I just want to be successful, and now my success is up to me -- no one else controls it.

For all those of you who have doubted & looked down upon me, who never gave me a fighting chance... all I can say is, look at me now. I'm going somewhere. I'm gonna be somebody. I'm gonna make history. I'm gonna reach my dreams -- the very same dreams I had as a little kid growing up in San Francisco.

Oh, the irony...

:'D

SJSU...

Reading this was one of the greatest feelings I've ever felt. There were definite tears of joy and deep feelings of affirmation -- that I finally got accepted. They only take 10-12 out of 60+ applicants per year... Shout out to Lola Pepay! I know you were watching over me the whole time. You've always emphasized education in the highest. This is for you...

I'm goin' to grad school babies!!!

Depressing.