I had a good weekend.

yes I did. =]

new song.

Desire - Ryan Adams

food coma...

...again. ah school tmrw then the weekend. it doesn't get any better than that. I just wish I could sleep for once before 1 am. This weekend should be interesting though. Last weekend was fun for sure.

Thanks Yasmeen for the pic! Amaya is so cute!

sad

There is a random kitten in my garage meowing its baby lungs out for its mommy. I feel soooo bad because he/she's all alone in the dark of my garage. =[

from one night.

I'm probably leaving out some important details here so bear with me... I'm not perfect

So earlier tonight, I was at this party in San Francisco. Pretty large group of us. 200-300 people. So I'm there with family. In the middle of the party, a young girl walks in. She looks lost and doesn't know where to sit. I noticed that she was really cute. Later on, as people started to dance, I noticed that she was sitting all by herself, looking bored. While dancing with some of my family, I contemplated whether or not to ask her to dance with me. I finally got up the courage to do so. I walked over. Tapped her shoulder and asked her to dance with me. (Up close she was even more cute than she did from afar, but it's not like I'm saying she was ugly form afar at all! lol) She seemed really shy and hesitant at first, but I reassured her with a smile that there's nothing to be shy about. She smiled back and replied, "Yes." (To my surprise) Her name was Ellie, Lily, or Lillian (I'm not sure because I was soooo distracted by her cuteness haha) We danced for what seemed like 2 minutes. I asked her a few questions and noticed how cute her smile was. She told me that her boyfriend was the DJ at the party. (a red flag popped up in my head) I asked her, "Will your boyfriend get mad?" She replied, "I'm pretty sure he will." Within 10 seconds from her answer, the music stopped. I look over and her boyfriend is looking at me. I feel kinda bad for what I did, but how was I supposed to know? Before she went back to her seat, I apologized to her for what I did. I got back to my seat, looked over at the DJ table and noticed that her boyfriend was looking right at me. I didn't know how to feel. I felt kinda good that I was able to dance with her, BUT I felt bad about her having a boyfriend and knowing that he watched me ask his girl to dance. I couldn't really talk to her for the rest of the night since she was being watched by her boyfriend. Man, she was really cute though. Just my luck. Right?

ILML

I messed up the rice a roni for dinner. idk how I did that... There are INSTRUCTIONS on the box and I still mess it up. Anyway, the rice came out burnt but I still ate it anyway. Drank like a 1/2 gallon of milk because it was about to expire. wow I really don't like to waste food. Now I'm in a food coma feeling sleepy like I've been up for 2 days straight. Maybe cooking isn't my thing.

ncba champs

today is ncba champs. Sac state's gonna rock out tonight....

Currently playing some Halo 3.... Not the same as before, mainly because I don't have the same crew I used to have... Soc Jin, Hugo707, ahh man, that was a good team.

trying to stay awake

I'm pullin' an all-nighter. It sucks. Just finished a 10 pg research paper. Now I gotta study for 2 midterms. Can someone just shoot me? At least the night didn't suck as bad as I predicted. =]

before I knock out.

Life's fancy.

I know what I want.

I need to get out.

I wanna get lost somewhere I haven't been.

Life's fancy.

So fly me on a plane.

Don't worry about the outcome.

Just immerse me in new air.

Show me something I've never seen.

I wonder what the rest of the world looks like.

Life's fancy.

feeling strange.

It's like 4am. What am I still doing up? I'm gonna blab about someone I've been thinking about lately so if you don't wanna read about that then skip to the paragraph after next.

So yeah, there's this person I've been thinking about lately... I can't really get this person off my mind. When I try to sleep, in the back of my mind she's just there, smiling at me. I miss her smile and the way she'd make me feel without even trying. Thinking further, I just miss being around her. Truly outgoing, all-around nice, and always there when I needed advice. I guess she's changed. For her it's, "Out of sight, out of mind." BUT for me it's, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." Whatevs....

On to other crap...

The past weekend was great! (Well except for drumline practice which will come later.) I picked up my Lola and auntie Aida at the Oakland Airport Saturday afternoon, (oh btw, don't go to the Walmart by the airport, it's super ghetto.) Then dropped my mom off in the city (got my wish!) Then cruised around a bit and drove back home to Vallejo. Slept in on Sunday and then we had a family gathering for my cousin Tony's 35th b-day/Lola's welcome party/Ray's back home in Vallejo party. It was really good to see my family again; I missed them so much after not seeing them in about 3 months. Drove back home (sac) around 11pm. Pretty good weekend IMO.

Drumline has been quite draining lately. I feel like through the whole season, we've been behind on everything. Other than a good 1/2 performance at McClatchy, I think that for this weekend, we'll barely have a full show. Saturday was really unproductive on many levels. Tonight was a good musical rehearsal though... I think. I hope Wednesday and Friday are super-productive because I really doubt we will be able to put a good show together by Saturday. Still, I'm being optimistic about things. Only 12 more days of this. On the other side of the coin, Renegades is looking like it's gonna be a fun summer. I just dread driving from Sac to San Jose every 2-3 weeks and paying for the hotel. I didn't know I'd be spending this much money every time we have a camp. Maybe a tenor sectional later tonight will help me get jump-started on my chops again. I'm hoping I still have some tenor chops left.

School is, well, school. lol. I just think that since Spring Break is next week, school just wants to be an ass and make me write all these papers and study for all these midterms. It's okay though. My love-hate relationship with school is very indicative of my psychological well-being. I guess that means that currently, I'm overwhelmed, tired, and just hanging on by a thread. No biggie though. I can do this.

Someone I can't let go.

Family.

Drumline.

School.

Oh, how I love my life.

What a weekend!

This past weekend was dope. Starting from Thursday morning up until Sunday night. It was all tight.

Thursday: was back in the bay, visited my fam, then Justin's 21st bday dinner at Cole's in Napa.

Friday: Ortho (finally), School (gayish), Show (played thru just a portion of the show but sac state threw down), Picked up Matt at amtrak, went around Sac (tiring).

Saturday: Cleaned, Prepped, spent hella money, 7 p.m. - Justin's 21st bday party, saw some friends I haven't seen in a while, 30+ people stuffed into an apartment, it got rowdy.

Sunday: Lunch @ Fresh Choice with some friends, mall, bought some CK one, dropped Matt of at the Amtrak station, came home, slept cleaned, shopped, talked to Sadia... she bailed on the party but it's all good.

Overall, this was the best weekend I've had in Sac so far. I hope we get a chance to do it again. Maybe an end-of-season winter percussion party after champs.

amazing.

My cousin found a video of my grandma (Lola) being asked to come on stage by Nora Aunor, a popular Filipina signer . I haven't seen my Lola since January, and watching this video brought a tear to my eyes. I know Lola had the greatest time up there on stage with her. She loves to dance (especially at her age, 95.)

I never

got my hug. aghhh.. I just remembered. Man, distractions are so unfair... You still owe me.

what's going on.

I need some sleep. 39 hours of being awake straight. it kinda sucks. actually it really sucks. save me.