This past week has been really odd to me. I've acted out of character quite a few times. I can't put my finger on why. I don't really know what's going on in my head. I miss having a [girl] friend that I can trust, and can just be myself around. It seems that at one point or another, people around me betray my trust. This isn't something that has been recent but more in the past few years. In that time I feel like people have just used me, lied to me, been fake to me, and have just treated me badly. I don't think I've deserved this. I think that to some of these people, I've been more than a good friend to them. I've tried to be a nice guy, I've more than tried to make these people happy, I've tried to do the right thing, and I haven't been a jerk. People say that you should treat people how you want to be treated. So if I'm the nice guy, why have I always felt like crap for the way people treated me? I know this doesn't apply to everyone I know, but there are just a few people I'm referring to.
Going back to this past week. I still don't know why this past week or so has been so weird. I can only say that I haven't really been happy/[satisfied] this past week. Maybe I just need someone to make me happy again. Not necessarily a girlfriend, but someone... It's sort of getting to me.
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