So suddenly...

This is all so sudden... I don't wanna bother my friends because I'm truly a broken record sometimes. This sucks.

Now all I'm left with are my thoughts. This isn't where I wanna be.

Busy busy week

Let's get the good times rolling. One more week.

Doing it up.

Just got back.

But that Vegas trip was EPIC. EPIC I tell ya. Awesome memories to keep for a long, long time...

Ok? Forget it. VEGAS!

Ok, Raymond... Last night's blog post makes no sense as I read it tonight. But alas, tis' an exciting night. Vegas eve... I haven't been since, well, January? I believe? Wow, it has been a while. I miss Amy. She'll be back this next Sunday coming up. Which may mean, I may need to schedule an LA trip to go visit her before my birthday. :) Summer has been expensive so far. :( But, it's been the most fun I've ever had my entire life.

2012 is gonna be the best year yet. Especially as I think back to 2011, which was the best year to date, looking at 2012, it's just gonna keep getting better! :)

Come home soon.

You wanna know how I'm crazy?

Because. I'd do such a horrible thing under the greatest possible circumstances...



Game changer. <<---- Me.

Summer means...

More fun in my life... although, at a cost... financial... I need an internship, but maybe, for now, I'll settle to work my ass off on my thesis... it's more flexible that way... :) I want to be done with my thesis by December... so that means I can spend my last semester just focusing on my internship... We'll see how this works out – but I gotta spend my money wisely.


Anyways, I also noticed that I blog less when school is out... I guess I've just been having too much fun since school has let out... I'm not complaining, but I have a feeling my blog has been feeling a little lonely lately... it's ok – I still love you blog...

The past 3 weeks since Justy's grad have been great... 2 Sac trips, one LA trip... Hella hella fun times... I can't wait for vegas in <1 month. More inside jokes that'll be referenced for years to come. ohhh myyy.

Love is a fickle thing.

My letter:

Amy, why did it take you so long to let me know how you feel? I spent so much time, wondering, worrying if I'll ever see you again. Well, I still forgive you. I know you'll be back soon. And we'll be together again. :)

Love, Raymond.

Amy...

This post is for my beloved Amy.

Amy baobao. As much as I love you, I can't just sit around and mope. I miss you more than anything, and all I want is one more day with you. With that said, you hurt me... You really did. You left me... completely in the dark. Its just me too. No one to share anything with.

You're the sweetest girl I've ever met. I fell in love so quickly. Now you're not in my life anymore. I want you to come back here and finish school. Please?

If you ever come back... in a second, I would take you with open arms.

Denial

I'm in denial right now. I can't seem to have a stable relationship with anybody...

I end up hurting the people around me.

The fact that I hurt the people around me just makes me feel like crap.

So here I am, back at square one. Apologizing again – sorry.

If anybody

could put the pieces of the puzzle together, and figure out my story for each and every clue I leave on this entire blog... I would consider you to know me better than I know myself. I mean really... I've put many clues as to who I talk about, but it's never obvious who I could really be talking about because I always make it sound like I might be talking about someone else... but the clues are there...


Really though, if you figure it out, let me know.

How I know

Because... at least you're trying.

(no J, not about you... but I can see how you may think it might be... that's a different story; the one referred to herein may know a thing or two about)

The Cake Is A Lie

This guy knows how to make music.

Summer!

It's Summer break! Finally! It feels amazing to be done with one year of grad school. One more to go, but first? Let's do the next 3 months big.

Here's to the best Summer yet.

Cheers!

I am so happy you're still here.

I have no words. I don't really know what to say.

All I can think of is that, you have someone watching over you Amy, and I am grateful you are alive.

I love you.