Asia was effing awesome.

but this is all I have left to sing.




I miss Amy.

I miss you Dad.

I would give anything just to see my Dad just one last time.

12:22pm

I was doing cardio at 24 hour fitness.

I got the call from uncle Russ.

Rest in peace my dearest Father.

I will pray for you.

You won't have to suffer anymore, because you're with God.

Dad.

Sometimes I wonder, the man I'd be... if I had a father who raised me since birth. Praying for my Dad. I can't tell anybody. So I'll tell you.

My Back

Now that the weather is starting to dip into the low 50s and high 40s at night, my back is starting to really hurt again, much like how it did a few months ago right after my bike accident.

Where's my aspirin?

An accurate portrayal of life.

Life will one day be nothing more than a beautiful everlasting memory.

My plan for the next month or so.

To Do:

-Rough Draft of thesis lit review
-Finalize measures for Job Engagement/Job Embeddedness
-Write IRB Proposal


-Keep HTC One S (Nexus 4 is just a maybe)
-Upgrade HDD to a 256GB SSD in MBP
-Upgrade to 16GB RAM in MBP

-Visit Amy
-Reunite with the crew for Thanksgiving
-Go Skydiving

-Less drinking
-Buy Asia trip plane tickets
-Be a more positive person

-Stay Hungry
-Stay Foolish

Do work, son

It just doesn't make sense.

Lemme see, based on my past, I'm gonna say that I'm not very good at avoiding someone I like.

I wonder what needs to change about myself for this effort to be successful this time.

Stay hungry. Stay foolish.

I'm going

to game 1 of the World Series.

Holy Crap.

IS THIS REAL LIFE?

Wow.

Thoughts on the season.

I have a feeling that although the Giants are doing exceptionally well this year, Posey's conflict with some of the pitching staff (most notably Lincecum) may be one of those secrets that the team is trying to play down.

I mean why else would Posey catch every other starter, and ONLY play first when Lince is pitching.

And did anyone else see Affeldt punching Posey when they clinched the NL West? Posey was PISSED. I know it was all supposed to be good fun and all but haha, I'm just hoping we don't lose Posey in the future because teammates can't necessarily see eye to eye.

And did anyone notice Posey calling out Bum in Game 2 about his arm angle against the Reds? That's just something you don't wanna do during between-inning warm-ups. The whole Reds squad must have noticed Bum was off his game.

Just my observation.

We still persevere. Magic #7

Letting myself down

I have constantly let myself down by attempting to persuade those who don't place any value on my life and feelings.

I'm tired of it. I know that I am a leader-type who can handle this bullshit and deal with those who don't care for me. I will just continue to be true to myself and love those who care about me. I'll make sure that someday, you see my success.

And you'll remember it.

One last.

And I'm single

Again. And how many documentations have there been Mr. Blog? You know me so well. :)

I'm not very good with break ups; this is something you also know very well. THIS break up seems to be easier in some ways but still, there are a lot of similarities to past ones.

I kind of have this problem of falling in love with someone and staying in love while they may slowly disengage. I don't know what it is, but I guess when I'm in a relationship with someone, I build up some static idealistic image of that person in my head. I become blinded by love, and forget that others' feelings may fade.

I end up loving people too much... and, in the end, they can't give me the love I need back...

And now, presently I'm single. I'm still looking for the right one. Someone who I can be completely real with. Someone who will love me for me and all I have to offer... someone who could be my partner for life. I think that's what they call a soulmate these days...

*sigh*

Goodnight.

With every ending

starts a new beginning.

Remember that Raymond.

You're still maturing.