100 pills lyrics.

LINK: 100 Pills - Mr. Meeble


(don't worry about the content of the video, the mp3 is what's important.)


Remember when we ran away to be one
To make promises
I'll be your love to the end

I never thought the end would come this way
That's for the other ones
In a different place, on a different day

Remember walking through the Cambridge grass
It was cold that day
I was so alive

Now I'm dead and cold
In a different way
I remember almost every word and every smile you gave

What am I supposed to feel?
How am I supposed to swallow this?
It's like one hundred pills
Doing their best to climb out of my mouth
Everything's gone south
Fucked it up for real
What am I supposed to feel?

In the end you sank the shiv that sank me
One flesh torn in two
One mouth less left to feed

Now I'm walking wounded through these scenes
Now you're free
So fly, don't think twice or wave goodbye

Hold the pain, the frame
Shame on me
Should have pulled it out by now but I savor the sting

Life's a funeral and an empty bed
I have taken mine a hundred times
Will I bury you instead?

What am I supposed to feel?
How am I supposed to swallow this?
It's like one hundred pills
Doing their best to climb out of my mouth
Everything's gone south
Fucked it up for real
What am I supposed to feel, feel? 

Awesome piano cover.

List of things to do before I move.

Raymond Ringl's Sacramento Bucket List

           

1.         Have a nice Thanksgiving dinner with my Psyc homes.

            2.         Go to Sac INTL and actually see a plane take off and land. (done: 11/8/10)

            3.         Display a helping behavior to 15 people.

            4.         Tell girls I thought were cute from my classes that I think they are cute.

            ⁃           Lindsay from 107

            ⁃           Samantha from 108

            -           Kelly

            5.         Go to Adalberto's one last time.

            6.         Have a goodbye dinner.

            7.         Bench 215 8 times with minimal help

            8.         Get down to 200 lbs.

            9.         Make sure the people I care about know how I feel.

            10.      Graduate… DUH

More to come...

54 days and counting.

Making a bucket list of things to do in Sacramento before I graduate and leave the city I've lived in the past 2 years. I'm gonna write this out, and post it on here... ah, 5 more weeks of instruction and then finals. My undergrad years are finally coming to a close.

One of these things is definitely telling a few (un)lucky people how I really feel about them. It's always good to get these things off of your chest.

Another random one is gonna be, "Have dinner with my closest friends that I've met in Sactown."

I'm enjoying the thought process. :)

sometimes...

you just need to cry it out...

Trip-Hop, Good Stuff.

Currently...

Currently,

I'm in the AIRC, not really studying or anything... Blogging actually at the moment.

Actually the purpose of my being here is to write my personal statement for graduate schools. So far here's what I've got written... And yes, I've revised this many times; trying to think of the best way to word it. It may need much more revising after this. Here's my "attention-getter"...

"As a young boy growing up in the city of San Francisco, one day my mother asked me, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I always remember my answer being, “I want to be a successful businessman working in downtown San Francisco, and I want a briefcase.” At the age of 8, I was very interested in business; how it was structured, and how money was made within the walls of a company’s building. Life has since then progressed, now finding myself studying psychology as my major. I have a passion to understand how people function; how people think, how people act, and therefore make predictions about their future behavior based on the study of psychology. My childhood aspiration has now evolved into an interest in the field of Industrial/Organizational Psychology. My purpose of wanting to pursue a graduate education is to blend the two: my childhood dream, and my passion, into a meaningful career."

-Yes, more work needs to be done... but it's a work in progress.

- I'll be applying to SFSU and SJSU soon. Not applying to Sac State anymore since I missed the Psyc GRE registration deadline. Hopefully I get into SF State (It's a 2-year MS program), it'll be a welcome transition for me because I grew up in San Francisco. I miss living in the city by the bay. 

-At least in 2 months, I'll be back where I belong... If all goes according to plan. 

OCTOBER 7, 2010

Referring back to my October 7th post,

This was the year. We did it. All these bandwagon fans have been watching only the past 3 weeks of baseball. This goes out to all the fans, who have been DIE-HARD GIANTS fans since they were young.

We are WORLD CHAMPIONS. Nobody can take that away from us.

Life

"I don't know exactly WHERE life is taking me right now, but I trust God will guide me down the right path."


So, I'm pretty much saying this now (and this might be premature, but hey) ... After I graduate, I will likely move BACK to San Francisco. It's the most practical option at this point. It's bittersweet that I have to leave Sacramento, but I can't survive here on my own. I need to be with family. No job, a degree that won't get me anywhere besides a job where I ask people, "Would you like fries with that?", and no place to live. Being a college graduate does NOT mean I'm ready to move into the real world, at least with my degree. I need at LEAST a Master's degree to be able to market myself in the Psychology field where I can actually apply my Psyc knowledge in a career.


So therefore, I'm applying to two schools: SFSU & SJSU in order to attain my Master's in I/O Psychology. I need to attain this degree so I know my 4.5 years of undergraduate studies were actually worth the time, effort, and money. I want to work in the field that I'm majoring in. That's basically my current "life" goal. 


As for the short term, I'm saddened that I'll likely be leaving my past 2 years of life as I know it here, and transitioning back into the city-life that is San Francisco. I'm gonna miss all the friendships I've created here, but life has it's reasons; who am I question it?

be careful

You don't wanna turn into the next Ivy.

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I want to try again.

I want to start over

I messed up, I know I did

I've only known you for like a month now

and I want to get back on the right foot

and I feel so awkward around you

Can we?

Can we just start over? Is it even possible at this point?

Tuesday

Tomorrow is gonna suck. Got a lot on my plate. Well, goodnight.


10%

Stolen phone? Weighing the possibilities.

Pros

1. I get to use my iPhone as a phone now, and not just an iTouch
2. I might get the T-Mobile G2 instead
3. I might actually get my phone back if the people at 24 were telling me the truth
4. WiFi would work on my new phone

Cons

1. Less money
2. New 2-year contract
3. Still have an iPhone being used as an iTouch. Lawl.

Hopefully I get my phone back though, money is more important to me.

smdwifta, yeah, you. haha.