Strictly Technical

I really want to learn more of the programming skills that my job has to offer. I see it coming very soon in the future...

You

You're not who I thought you were.

Emotionally

Emotions have been really high lately... everything seems to be filled with emotion...

Keep going

This is what it's all about... what's the next stop???

I don't know.. and that's good.

intensity

Why do I need intensity to feel alive?

Is this true of most people, or just me?

Sigh...

idk if I should keep going, or if I should go back to what's comfortable...

Signing off.

Dad

Dad,

I hope you understand how much I think of you... and how much I wanted to know who you were... what you were like... I think it would help me understand why I am the way I am today....


I miss you Dad.

I could use your advice.

Last night

I love the feeling of when you are connecting with another human being. In brain biology, it's the same as a drug's effect on the brain.


A strong rush of dopamine... it's a great motivating driver for our behaviors... that's why love is so powerful.

And I failed again...

Barely making it these days... The struggle is real...

The urge...

I have this urge to wanna blog again... but I have nothing to blog about...


My job is pretty tough so far... I'm only training -- but my head is straight up spinning...

A lot to cover/learn in a short amount of time...

I'm refreshed though!


Hopefully tmrw night goes well!

Signing off -- Raymond

The life

Some would say that where I am in life, right now, is the "primetime" of my life. It's time to get out there, be foolish, have fun, meet cool people, and just enjoy life...

There will never be a time as good as I have it now, where I will have my youthful/childishness/playfulness the same as I have it now.


Let's go out and enjoy the life, because it's such a beautiful one, at that...

Signing off...

-Raymond

Starting over...

At long last... I feel free again... I can do what I want. Freedom to do as I please...


Some might say that being single is necessary for self-discovery...

At least it's fun....

It's been a while since I've left my heart on my sleeve.

My heart can’t take this anymore.
I can’t being alone anymore.
I am alone in this relationship for two...
We say we are in a relationship, but we can’t be together.
this doesn’t make sense...

Why should I continue to torture myself?

Today was an awesome day

Today was an extra awesome day. It feels good when you know people believe in your leadership. I'm just very positive. Do what you gotta do.

Mentoring...

Even though I'm supposed to be helping you, I feel like your conversations help me better understand myself... You are a good person at heart.