Man...

I need to lose this weight... I'm working out with out getting any results... just maintaining or on a surplus... i.e., gaining weight.

I need to figure this out.

I am not as strong as I used to be... I need to get back into cardio first... Once I get my stamina back, i'm sure my lifts will go back up where they used to be... I still remember being able to deadlift 315lbs, squat 275 pounds... 13 pull ups... 10-12 dips... and now I'm just like man... look at where I used to be. and look at where I am at now. barely can squat 225. barely can deadlift 225, bench a max of 185 like 1-2 times... 3-4 dips max, 3 pull ups max... I used to be strong!!!

Let's start this slow... be disciplined.

If you were only here.

I can't sleep.

Maybe it's because I miss you...

I feel centered when you're with me. I feel at home. I feel like we could be together for a very long time. I feel... good... when I'm with you.

Love.

I'm in love with a girl. Her name is Amy.

Safe and Sound

You will seek Me

and find Me

when you search for Me

with all your heart.

Sometimes you have to make decisions with your heart.

If you don't follow you heart in life... what is the point of living?

5 years ago.

It's December! Wow.... Happy almost 5 years, Blog. I still do use this thing... ya know.

College Graduation Night

When I start to think that someday I'll be a parent.

I still can't imagine that I'll be raising a child of my own someday. I'll try my best, for you... future somebody. I hope I do well for you, someday.

Sometimes, I don't mind. BEAST!

Back into the gym swing

So I'm back to the gym now... Trying to be healthier. Trying to get swole once more.. I guess you can call it a win if you keep on trying to reach your goal...

HAH!


So I'm going to NOLA at the end of the month... Just bought tix to BKK/Philippines for Late Dec thru Mid Jan... Good luck getting it off at work! HAHA.

What else is new? Hmm... Well, the internship is going well... I'm starting to enjoy Human Resources a lot... I guess I just like work and people at work??? idk.


The Altawatys came 2 weeks ago and we spent a great deal of time hanging out and just being children again. Fun stuff. I feel like it was just yesterday when I would go spend entire Summers with them in Riverside. Oh the memories.... Except now we do even more fun stuff ;)


Last weekend in Reno with the roomies was pretty fun -- except for the crappy time gambling... Let's hope 2 weeks from now is a lot better.

This weekend is Kim's birthday. Next weekend is Sac town with Matt, Darren, and Jorge. The weekend after is Oktoberfest with the roomies in SF. Then the last weekend of the month is NOLA. September will be a good month.


Which reminds me... I need to finish up a few chores that I've been lagging on...


Just keep on gyming! I might be fooling myself, but I think this time will be the time I am ready to get really swole like a mofo.

Onward!

It's been a struggle lately.

But you know what? I think that the real issue here is just to keep myself busy, and hey, if I do need to let loose, I just need to keep a good head on my shoulders and make good choices.

I know what I need to do, and I'm smart enough to make the right choices, so I just need to execute my strategy...

Thesis submitted!

Today was day 5!

I feel great. I feel empowered...

Time to celebrate tomorrow with my 2 other peers who will have finished their theses as well!

(I'll make an exception for this, as I promised special occasions were okay) :))))

As I finish editing my thesis.

Sometimes I look back at the experience of grad school and wonder...


How the hell was I able to finish grad school in 2 years????

With all of the boozing, partying, and stupidness that I went through... How did this happen?

Well, at least I was one of the first to graduate in my program. It was a hell of an experience.

*Day 4 of sobriety.* Clear minded and happy again. :)